Okay, so I know some of you are wonder what does “relaunching myself” means.
Well sit back girl because I’m about to tell you.
First, the meaning of relaunching by Webster’s dictionary is to reintroduce or restart something. So guess what girl, I am RELAUNCHING! There have been so many areas in my life that have been closed or shut down. You know like a business. And the crazy thing is, I didn’t close them. Others did. It’s almost like the loss was more than the profit and I just didn’t have any more ideas of how I was going to get out of the red. So, I started listening to others and pretty much while they were slowly but surely building boards up to place on the windows (my eyes) and inserting the key to lock the doors (your heart).
And, I’m not making an excuse for the “Rona” but being shut down and not able to do anything for at least 3 months, doesn’t make it any better. Yes, so this is a most recent revelation that came to. But, there was a statement made by a very powerful and classy lady that I admire, the former, and still to some like myself, First Lady of the United States, Mrs. Michelle Obama, in the Netflix special of her book, Becoming. She said I’m not trying to get back on track, I’m focused on creating my own tracks. Y’all!!! That did something to my entire spirit.
So when I sat down at my home desk, I grabbed a pen and my journal, and I started writing everything that I did and the outcome. I got up to a list of 8 things. Yes, 8!! Now this list of 8 does not include the normal stuff like, being a wife, a mother, cleaning, cooking, you know, the normal stuff. But outside of those hats, the list of 8 reads, blogging/vlogging, being a planner babe, podcasting, being a paparazzi jewelry consultant, crafting, drinking coffee, listening to jazz music, and being in a room with a candle lit quietly. I was told that people like me don’t do those type of things. And what in the hell does that supposed to mean? I heard it constantly and it would depressed me. I would listen to their words and I would drown in them, and guess what, THEY WON. And the weird thing about it, I would start seeing them doing what I was doing and using my ideas and they were flourishing. I’m like what in the entire hell????? So guess what? They won and I was shut down.
So, back to those awesome words from Mrs. Michelle Obama. Either I had to dwell in pity or get my big ass up and make a move. So, I got my big ass up and I started moving. The way I feel about myself. What I am capable of doing. What I want to do. What I need to do. And so on. I have to do this for myself. I have to have the faith. Faith in God and faith in myself. In Mark chapter 5, Jesus answered Jairus and said “don’t be afraid, just have faith”.
So in the process of me RELAUNCHING, I am going to have faith. I know God said to not be afraid, but this is going to scare the sugar honey ice tea (you know the word) out of me. I don’t have to settle in the words that people say about me and what I am doing in my life for ME. The grand opening took place in my heart. I looked in my mirror and said, GIRL YOU GOT THIS! Rome wasn’t built overnight but it was built and look at it today!! So, yeah, I’m doing it and I’m going to be damn good at doing it. If you don’t like it, TOUGH COOKIES. If you do like it, good for you but it won’t stop me this time.
I’m doing this for me and that’s all that matters! So long to listening to others. Hello to listening to myself!
“Turn your wounds into wisdom.” - Oprah Winfrey
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