Okay, so I know when you read the title, you will say "oh she's fine; she has her faith". But little do you know, that it has not been easy.
Y'all when this COVID-19 starting spreading like the wind blowing, I went into an anxiety attack. I mean you are telling me that I can't go outside or I will catch it. Or, I can't go to the grocery store or I will catch. Or better yet, I can't go to work or I will catch. If I breathe in the wrong area, I will catch it. I am by no means an introvert type person. So yeah, I questioned God about ALL OF THIS! I was like okay God now You and me are on good terms. But why are you punishing me like this? Why are you allowing me to be at home when You know that I'm not a homebody type person? Why are you doing this to Your people? You know, sometimes you have to have that deep one on one talk with God.
Did I get an answer right away? And, that will be a no. So that's when the anxiety attack hit. I mean if I looked to my left, I thought I had the symptoms. If I looked to my right, I thought I had the symptoms. I even called a local testing site to schedule me to come in and get tested. Got there. The nurse asked me several questions and she told me to go and see my primary doctor. I called my doctor and talked to the nurse. Went to the office and yep, I was having an anxiety attack. She said that subconsciously, everything that I was watching and reading about the symptoms and cases, I was applying to myself. So, back to God I went and sent Him a list of questions.
As I calmed down, and no it didn't happen right away, my memory started to reflect back on the many many times I was "sick for real" and was in the hospital. Let's just say, I became a cry baby. God didn't point me directly to His Word but he pointed me to His actions (that's a Word for somebody). He reminded me of what He has done before and what He would do again. So as I reflect, the nerves that were all out of whack started to calm down and I was starting to feel much better.
Since then, I make sure that I stay in the Word of God and I keep positive quotes around me. It is so easy to get side tracked and just thrown off completely. But, I'm thankful that my surroundings, even at home, are reminders of what God has said and what He has promised. It has also helped me that both of my Pastors (yes I have two, judge yourself) have both preached on trusting even the more in God and having strong faith. The Bible studies have even been great reminders. My faith planner for the month of April has scriptures on the subject of God's protection. I read those as well and write down what they mean to me.
So yes, I fell and fell hard. But thankful that God allowed me to get back up and now I have him as my main guide everyday.
Going through this pandemic is not easy for none of us. But, the devil comes to kill, steal, and destroy. But God comes so that you may have life and have it more abundantly (John 10:10). I'm not telling you that you can't be scared because I was scared and sometimes I may still get scared. That's the human side of us all. But that spiritual side of us, for those that believe, know that God is our Protector.
Things that helped me get back on track:
1) Prayer
2) Reading the Bible
3) Positive quotes
4) Giving yourself a break from the news and social media. It can drain you completely out.
5) Meditation
I hope these tips can help you get back on track.
If you have some tips on how you get yourself back on track, I would love to read them.
xoxo
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