So maybe the title makes this sound like it's going to be a sad and depressing post. Nope! This is just a way that I am expressing my life and just being real.
The hardest thing I'm dealing with right now in life is trying to be a better person. There are sooooo many levels to becoming a better person and I feel like I am stuck on level 2. Level 1 was the easiest; saying that I want to be a better person. But level 2, it's were I'm stuck at. This level is actually working towards becoming a better person.
Now by me saying this doesn't mean that I am a bad and terrible person. I just want to become better. I have made some bad decisions in the past, that today I'm thinking why did I do that. Yes, a real life Steve Urkel moment. Then there are some things that I want to do and there's just something that is holding me back. Sometimes I can say things that I regret later on and it makes me feel sad. So, I want to be better with my words and thoughts. I want to do what is good and not evil.
Some may say that this is not hard but it's different for others. Everyone has their own level/layers in life to peal off and grow. I have started associating with things and people that will help become better. Education is all around for everyone in every type of situation. You don't have to just be in a classroom to learn.
I want to be a better wife.
I want to be a better mom.
I want to be a better daughter.
I want to be a better sister.
I want to be a better friend.
I want to be a better entrepreneur.
I want to be healthier.
I want to be BETTER.
Every day I strive to do things better than what I have done before. Yes, I smile, laugh, joke around, friendly, and all that other stuff in-between. But, yes but, how does it really make me feel on the inside for myself? I truly need to learn how to say NO more often. And, it's not to make others feel bad by me saying it but for me to feel better for myself.
Being better is hard and challenging but I am determined to stay the course and do it! And, once it becomes normal, it won't be the hardest thing to do any more.
xoxo
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